life gets better before it gets worse

tense, insecure, scared
worried depressed and sad
wishing to turn back the time
to better days of past
and making sure it lasts

confused, suspicious, nervous
alone, emotional,weak
I'm no superwoman
cant keep up with my cheerful physique

am i making a bigger deal of things?
seeking cover before the bomb explodes?
am i weak, stupid
for thinking things are bad?
when really, recently only good times I've had?

no im not stupid maybe meek but never weak
its when things reach an intense greatness
that i lookout for the fall
cant bear staying happy
without being scared at all

I've learned from the past
good times never last
there's always a cycle of bad times to follow
such where the occurrences of past

so please god
don't take the good away
because I'm scared of hurting
let heart warming feeling stay
i want to stay happy like yesterday
today tomorrow and forever
so don't indulge me in that sorrow
that bottomless pit of darkness
because this time i doubt
ill have the strength to stop my fall
nope don't think so at all